I'm so sick and tired of life right now. Everything I've been working for is going down the ******** drain. I can't even look at my reflection without feeling sick anymore. My real friends have tried to cheer me up and succeed only for a moment. It's not their fault I'm like this. It's mine. I am trying to drown my pain and sorrow in music and poetry. It doesn't seem to be getting me anywhere. I'm scared I am losing my man and my mind. I can't seem to stitch it all together. I got kicked out of almost all of my classes this semester and am scared that I have lost any chance to finish college. I am going nowhere at my job. I don't have the time or money to hang with my friends anymore. I don't have time to even finish all the s**t I have to do at home. I'm thinking about quitting Gaia because of my lack of time lately. Maybe I'll actually get some s**t done if I quit hanging online. Maybe I'll actually get things straightened out. That's it. I'm taking a long vacation from Gaia. I don't know how long it will be. I might keep getting on everyday just for the Daily Chance. I don't know. But I will not be spending so much time on here as I have been. I've become a Gaia-holic and I'm sick of seeing myself this way. But it's not like it's doing me any good to even type this. No body ever reads my journal anyhow. ********. I've spread myself so thin it's a wonder my friends even have anything to do with me. Goodbye for a while.
 Miss Freaky Rose · Mon Apr 07, 2008 @ 08:09am · 0 Comments |
