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*sigh* It is a bit of a pity. But then, you know where my loyalties lie... v.v; People do change over time, and things can never be undone. Just not the way the world works. In this world, and the state that it's in, you can only really trust yourself anymore. Put too much faith in another person, you're just gonna get hurt in the end. (Yeesh, I'm one to talk. xp ) You're right. Humans can't get along with eachother. 'Peace' in any form can never truly be achieved. There was never a time in this world that it wasn't so. If you ask me (not that anyone would, as my worthless opinions don't matter to anyone since I'm pretty much the single most hated person in our town), our little warring group needs to pick up the pieces of their shattered hearts, minds, and lives, and simply move on. It's a hard thing to do. But it's not like we're all married to eachother or something. >.< In the sense that we don't have to fix eachother's problems, and it seemed to me that is what everyone was trying to do. Instead of strengthening the relationships, we all just tried to help eachother. Eventually one of us got tired of it, and started ignoring the others. (You know who I mean, I'm just not in a mood for pointing fingers.) 'Parental figures' around us keep trying to patch things up, which only causes more problems. If someone doesn't want to be friends with someone else, that's that, it's over and done with, no questions asked. Bonds will be broken, and you'll spend many nights alone and crying. You'll always remember what was lost to you, but eventually you'll look back and smile. Because your current life would be better than the previous one. In times like this, when we are tested most, no matter the issue we have to stand strong. We'll all be coming out of this with scars an broken hearts, none of us will probably ever be friends again. :/ But that just leaves an opportunity for someone better to come along.

As for me? I'm just the stupid mutt, laying low and listening to every one else. That's the only reason I have a place to speak on this. Because I've listened to the stories, dug for the truth, and put the pieces together. :/ (Adding this next part because of someone who I'm pretty sure will read this and want to b***h at me about bond breaking and what would I do.) And hell, if Taylor decides to throw me away, I'll accept it, move on, and go find someone else. We can't cling to people like everyone in this group did, and we can't make tight bonds like that. Because every person in that group is going to have seperate oppinions, closed minds, and wear their hearts on their sleeve. They'll have lies, and they'll hide things. Way of the world today. :/ We all acted like a bunch of immature kids until some of us got the bright idea to grow up. Others didn't like it, and more problems began.

Kay well, I'm done... I need to shut up before I get too terrible deep. sweatdrop

I am sorry we can't get along and i will try and pull my strings within my side to keep you out of this but just like Amber and Mackenzie's fight when i had to choose you might have to in the end.

Be it a mistake, I will fight for my friendships.... they're all I have. And I'll pay for it in the end, cuz I WANT someone to still be friends with me when I leave the high school. I haven't got the self-esteem to survive losing everyone.

I hate to be mean (sorry I've been in a terrible mood recently) but frankly, if someone doesn't want to be your friend, you really can't fight for it much. I know where you're coming from... Believe me I do... But you can't force people to get along... Besides, what good are friends that hate you anyway? Er... Not saying that everybody hates you! sweatdrop Honest. But... You know what I mean right?

Yeah, I know what you mean, don't worry. And I understand the whole mood thing, too, so don't worry too much 'bout it. I just.... hate the though of simply giving up. Though it'll probably be better for anyone who wants to stop being friends with me if I were to just back off, it hurts to give up, though that's probably less pain than fighting.... and I've never been a good fighter.... *shrugs* Maybe I won't fight it if it happens..... Doesn't really seem to matter.

Well, well, finally someone who listens to reason. (You'll have to excuse this mood too, I feel rather sadistic, and a bit like a control freak. It's actually a semi-normal mood for me, so I'm finally getting un-emo.) Normally I hit people with that line about now, and they go noble on me and decide to try and save the world while they're being full of themselves. Many people try to fill their heads with nonsense about fighting to keep bonds together and whatnot. And... While I admit that in a commited relationship that is rather necessary; in something as simple as a friendship, it's entirely pathetic. You can strengthen bonds all you want, but the more attatched you get the more you get hurt in the end when the other person decides to move on. True, indeed it would be easier if you'd just back off when someone no longer wishes to befriend you. You might have shot self esteem, but somewhere in there you've got a lot of... Shall we say... Yearning for justice? It rather seems to me that you simply want things to be proper again. 'Justice' or 'peace' in your own mind at least. But those two things are always different for every person. (Thus why 'world peace' is going to be the death of humans eventually.) We can go about this little situation any way we want. In the end we're all looking for our own version of peace. Some of us have agreed with what that peace would be, and we're working towards it... Others find themselves alone, like they're the only ones who see 'peace' in a certain way. Personally, I've found my peace, and I most certainly plan on achieving it. Why, I'm already most of the way there. But- even if you do achieve your 'peace' and fufill your quest for 'justice' amongst us... The conflict isn't going to end. Our views are all much too different for that. Heh, I suppose that is in fact why many like us favor the internet. Because rather than in real life where people are devious creatures full of hatred and lies, here we can find others like us and reach out to them. We can find groups that correlate to our own interests and likes. I'm not going to lie by saying that our situation is unfortunate. I'm just going to come out and say it. You all should have seen it coming. I don't normally critisize the actions of others, as I cannot completely comrehend their thinking. But on this subject I think I'm going to let go a bit. Frankly, you all clung to eachother and became blind to the events around you. This wasn't just some event that happened quickly. Something like this takes ages to complete. No one just woke up one day and decided to hate someone. It isn't how the mind works. In the mind, we naturally find flaws in those around us. What we choose to do with those discoveries is up to us. We can fix them with enough work, we can accept them, ect. In this case however, I believe that when the flaws were detected, someone slowly began to break bonds. They found something they didn't like, and they tore at it to make it worse. They ripped it up; made it bleed a bit. Then left. So it shouldn't have impacted you as much as it did. But you were blind, so when the day came that you looked around at the chaos, you became aware of the situation. My accusations could be wrong, I'm jsut spewing all I've viewed in the time I've been around you all.

Hm. You know... It's not like it's anyone's fault for being blind though. Very few have actually opened their eyes to view the world around them. I had help with my eyes. Heh... And I've already betrayed my saviour's (for the viewers, this isn't a 'god' reference, as I'm really not fond of him) trust, broken promises, and lied to him. But one thing I know is that I will never forget him, and I will always remember how he saved me. He was the one of first poeple to care, and the first person to help; a saviour to me, but a daemon to the remainder of the world. The others continue to view him as such, and they wish he would simply dissapear. Wondering where I'm going with this are you? Well... Put simply... I do hope that one day someone like that comes along for you. I'd hate to see you remain blind like this. You never know when something might happen- something we'll all regret.

"Something we'll all regret?" Like what? It seems like I'm a ghost to everyone, so what the Hell could I do that everyone will regret?