omg!!!!!!!! it hurts soooooo bad!!!!!!!!!! i love Javi more than anything!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe i might lose him to someone else!!!!!!!!! gonk she must be prettier and better than me in every way&& why??????? why does this always happen to me??????? what did i do wrong?????? whats wrong with me??????? i feel like i might throw up but nothing will come out&& my heart is in shreds!!!!!! i cant do this!!!!!!!! i need to end the freaking pain!!!!!!!!!!!
Dying Alone
when does the pain stop
for the abused
whether its mentally
physically
verbally
it hurts about the same
the feeling of being stabbed in the back
heart ripped from your chest while barely beating
and then stabbed and ripped to shreds
the pieces scattered on the ground
and no one to pick them up
the torment
the guilt
knowing its your fault for being depressed at all
you care too much and love too much
when you shouldn't at all
you only end up worse
hopes crushed
why bother
your never good enough
theres always someone better
your not strong enough on your own
dependant too much on others
then you end up alone
well no matter what happens i will ALWAYS love MY Javi!!!! ><
 Black Rose 613 · Mon Nov 03, 2008 @ 11:05pm · 1 Comments |
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