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Life: each breath i take adds another chain
each heart beat puts another knife through me
and with every second i cry another bullet flies in at me
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is this how it is? no more sunshine and cupcakes for me? haha ok i see how its gonna be im not over you i cant hide it its too much this saddening rush emotion explosion and all i do is hurt i miss you to death i can not ever forget haunting my lonely mind and its seems to me that everything reminds me of you your just afraid i figured it out your too scared to get hurt yet look at me hurting over and over and over again and you'd think i'd have my fill but no not yet cause i still want you let you go ... impossible i'll let you think i have i know the truth i cant. i've lost far to much and come so far just to dead end how classic my expectations were low for you i only wish i had more time with you to tell you the truth to let you know that i can not let go that i love you so and im willing to do anything for you please dont go i saw it coming and it still hurt i have lost my ablity to trust i refuse to let you go like all the rest i just dropped i cant lose you thou oh no cheated on and lied to, used and abused but you; just simple heartbreak of them all i only loved you only you and i watch you just pull it beating out of my chest rip it a part and shatter it on the ground dont even stick around to pick up any pieces the full feelings i still have when were near but my empty chest is left now cuz u left me your right if ur not happy with what you hav u dont deserve it, but i deserve you i'll be your angel in the dark i'll be your princess you'll see i'll be whatever you wish me to be the hole in my chest like a bullet shell so empty my brick wall is crumbling i let you in and you killed me im no saint im nothing but a sinner i've paid my dues and im done my debit is cleared and my body numb pills and thrills and knives and guns all used to be so fun till i slit my wrist and it went numb with blood so kindal the pain inside fuel the rage and clean your slate dont dare follow my path or you'll be scarred in my wrath shattered and toren apart broken like a porcelain doll mangalled high and strung low dont tell me that im the one who is bad im just trying to escape my unwanted fate and remove these iron bars infront of me and the angels sing their symphany sweet angles of musality bringing me down to reality and cheerish the clouds and the rain and they sing me to sleep and if i could be anywhere in the world today and if i could bring anyone with me i would take you to the ocean along the salty beach at dusk in the city and have you walk with me now i just wish you were with me but i dont wanna linger long in my misery it does nothing positive for me so move along and keep head strong but maybe i just cant yea maybe i failed i gave it my all and crumbled down you left me in shambles of melancholy bliss in my desolate mind with all its tricks and that girl has a fool over you but you'll never know so simple minded and calm but no boii in this world nobody is as much like me as you and all our random da ja vu so crank up the tunes cause nomatter what i'm still gonna be in love with you and maybe its a waste of my breath and i know its not right and i sound so selfish but inside i need us to survive sweet love of full feelings your charming allure i lust after becuase i need you and i never knew i would hav to lose you so damn soon sweet flowers autumn bloom and winters chilly claw of doom maybe i just cant rescue you cause im all alone and it not worth going through to save the lives of those who hurt you but im stuck here and thats what i do so gather the souls and form a smile watch it fade after a while this happy scene is make believe because i dont think you should see what you've done to me all the tears, i hav to hide my eyes because i want you to know and never see the tears from me now that im drowning but i will not die no i will not die im not on the verge of suicide no not this time because of that hope maybe ima dope to think you'd not let go but i know whats in your soul and i see what you dont believe i see and i need you to know that i took a deeper looke from the start and when you left me it totally crushed my heart and you said not to be sad that you were not mad but the reasoning you gave to me is too hard to believe its not good enough for you to do such a thing to me and all i ever wanted and all i ever needed was giving to me by you and all i ask of you is a simple kiss goodbye.. xXMiss AsphyxiationXx · Sun Dec 07, 2008 @ 08:33pm · 0 Comments


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"I'm not saying that I'll love you forever
Hell who am I kidding
Cause were perfect together
Notice that when we talk I can't help but stutter
Your to perfect for words
I just want you forever."
-Red Car Wire

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