today.. all i could feel are mixed emotions. you wanna know why? but even if you don't wanna know.. i'll just tell you and there's nothing you can do about it..
so... a lot of things happened today.. the sad and happy things.
lets start of with the happy things. well. that's what some people usually do when they tell stories right? so... the sad part that happened today is about my friend.. something happened.. all i can say right now with one word is 'accident'. a really big accident that kept worrying me all throughout the day. neutral
and that happy part is.. sure i had kind of fun today because i was with the love of my life. but then... i thought really hard if i really do love her. because its like.. whne i' with her.. i just feel numb. i don't feel a spark. its like maybe there is still but hidden yet i feel like the way before...3 1/2 years back.. when we we're really friends, so close to each other like there's nothing happening. but now we've probably grown far apart because of the distance i guess. and the contact. stupid teacher who let us not BE classmates last 2 and a half years... confused but... there are times when i see her looking at me... and those time are something i couldn't explain because its really hard to read a girl's mind. damnation. what will i do? i just don't know what's up in her mind. i'm so clueless.
_tildet_ · Mon Mar 30, 2009 @ 10:46am · 0 Comments |