i feel like a dumb-a** booty call now, we had fun for an hour than he hadta go... it seems that everytime we are near eachother we wanna b kissing or cuddlin or whatever. sometimes i think i want to brake up with him so i could be with someone who i can actually chill out with you know? Someone who can just be there and be hyper with at the mall. like friends, but we'd love eachother like noone else could. i just wish that we weren't SO attracted to eachother, its almost impossible to find 1 moment in my day where i wasnt horny, just 4 him. :[ its cool, really it is but not makeing out for a bit and chillin' would in fact be nice... wth am i thinking as soon as he enters the door i'm going to be like "oh s**t, i want him NOW but i thought hanging out was what i wanted... why the hell did i even bother worrying?" i feel bad thats all. i dont regret anything we did at all & i dont wanna take back anything i did either. maybe we could be like that, hanging out all day without 1 moment of total lust (just wanting to be wrapped & intwined to eachother) possibly we could do that. i think its mostly my fault because i know that if i asked him to stop he would, but i never do.... soooooooooo if I could change that i might just get what i want... and if thats not truely what i want than i can give in to him again. things never go as planned but i could always try, right??? <3 u, plz comment
 Xxkorn_chaserxX · Sat Jan 09, 2010 @ 11:51pm · 2 Comments |
