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I am not avery happy camper today.I am having so many problems at the moment I want to have Cassie help but she has to spend time with her familly at the moment.It is very understandable for her to have to spend time with her familly so I can't blame her.Besides that none of my problems are her fault.First my dad is an a** that is by far the worst backseat driver I have ever known.Then I didn't want to drive home because of how he acted while I was driving.He threatend to hurt me if I didn't the a** couldn't even do that I did drive but he had no intention of ever laying a finger on me.I can beat him and he knows it.The only thing he can do is crush my body but he will never get a cahnce to do that.Then I asked if Cassie could come over tommorow but my mom said"Why don't you go over to her house" then Randy added a comment"Cause they can't make out at her house".I so want to beat someones skull.Well Cassie is going over to her aunts to sleep over there I hope she has fun for I sure as hell ain't.I can't wait till I get to talk to her later on the phone.That will help me a lot.My nerves are so shot right now it hurts to move any part of my body.Half-life isn't helping me release anger like I thought it would.It is actually just creating more anger.I think I am going to hide under my pillow now and try to find peace in my thoughts.I already know what to look for in my thought just gotta do it. stare sweatdrop sad
Edit: They just realized that I went and cleaned there kitchen and they didn't even say thanks.They asked what I wanted.I just shook my head.After that they thought I felt guilty for something.I hope that some day they understand why the hell I do things like that but I doubt they care enough about me to even try and figure out.
Edit:I just got off the phone with Cassie and my mood is not better at all.I just couldn't tell her that I was sad and rune her mood.She kept thinking she was boring me and asked if I wanted to get off the phone with her.I think she just wanted me off the phone . crying
Cassie if you get sad at all by reading this please call me!!!!