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Today, I had a test today. Nothing big, an easy exam, guaranteed that i aced it.

But thepoint of this journal entry are the deep feelings I've had alll day. Once again, I was confronted with the usual questions. When am i going to get married? Why I don't have a girlfriend?

To be honest, I can't seem to find someone I am compatible with. I met someone, but I don't think we're going anywhere. With all these people pressuring me in hanging my ways to meet someone I'll probably will not be happy with, it had me in quite an odd mood all day. I wasn't angry, or sad, or worried. It was just odd.

Like a famous person once said, "I would rather be alone than unhapppy." Or, "I would rather than feel nothing than feel any pain at all." Lots of people think that I am wrong, or that I am going against god's will. But I feel that god may be telling me that I am one of those who are destined to be alone. I am not saddened by that belief, but I do think it is a bit unfair.

This brought about another series of odd thoughts. I thought ablout the past, and realized that I may have inheried a gift. No idea who gave it to me, but I know I have it. When I was younger, I was extremelly stupid. But after mom died, I became very intelligent overnight. Not sure how or why it happpened, but from one day to another; I was going from failing grades, to becoming one of the most intelligent people in my school. I also seem to understand things most people spend an entire lifetime trying to understand. It's wierd, but true.

Another thing I like to add is that I just finished beating FF 7: Crisis Core. All I have to say is: Wow! The game is fantastic in almost alll parts. The only thing I didn't like was the llevel up system. But this game is far better than the original Final Fantasy 7.

I guess i had a lot on my mind. Well, see you next time.