This is to all my friends who I can't get up enough courage to tell this to them in the flesh.
I'm that girl in the corner. The one no one knows is there. I just sit there, quiet, and nod now and then. You see, when nineth grade came closer, I was easily forgotten. No one really cared...and I guess no one ever will. I used to have friends. Friends who I trusted. Friends who cared. But now...I barely have any. I only seem to have three close friends. But even then, they sometimes forget me. Once they cared, and I cared back. But now all I really do is care. I have the same rutine everyday of my life. I wake up, go to school, go home and lock myself in my room. I'm never remember by anyone anymore. They probably forget I even exsisted half of the time. I had another "close" friend that I thought I could trust. But that "friend" and I had our many tiffs. Now, my tolerance for that friend is thin, and that friend is no longer close to me. All my friends do things together, while I sit alone. half of the time I don't mind. But there are those days when it truely hurts. They don't understand what it means to have a hard life. They don't undestand what it means to feel alone. They don't know what it feels like....to not be loved. Thats right.....love. Love is a lost feeling to me. I barely recieve any. Wednesdays and every other weekend is when I feel love. When I feel that I have a purpose. But when I'm not around those days, I sit in the shadows...crying. I cry becasue I feel I no longer belong to you guys. I'm nothing but the girl in the shadows. I'm that person who no one knows. "Who is that girl?" "I thought I knew her name..." But thats ok guys...I'm just going to leave. I no longer have a purpose in life. I no longer feel needed. So I'll just stay away. To those close friends I mentioned earlier, I will still contact you. I'll keep my connections to you strong. Two should know who they are, for they can see this. The other one can't, but that person knows who he/she is...and always has. But to the others...Farewell.
The girl in the corner....
 ~The~Blackest~Rose~ · Wed Mar 08, 2006 @ 12:37am · 9 Comments |
