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He says I’m sexy
He says he likes my hugs
I’m one of his close friends
He says he likes me
She says I’m beautiful
She says I’m perfect
I’m nice and I understand her
She says she loves me
I don’t like either
He knows and he accepts
She knows and doesn’t
I told her I was going to break her heart
I told I’d do nothing more but hurt her
She’s the one who chose not to listen
She’s the one who insisted on liking me
Even though I will never return the feelings
I begged her to leave
To completely ignore me and forget all about me
But she didn’t
I told her to not let me hurt her
And she said I wouldn’t
I couldn’t
She was stronger than I took her for
But that obviously wasn’t true
When the realization hit
She cried
And then became furious
I cried a little too
But on the inside
I never wanted to hurt her
I never wanted to be the cause of her pain
But I was
And it kills me inside to know that I am no longer the victim
I am now the heartbreaker
And that kills me
So why don’t I just give up my life
Jump off a cliff
Fall into the wrath of the ocean below
Let it consume me
Digest me
Until nothing is left
I never want to hurt anyone
Ever again