we were in the car just sittin there no one said a word or a noise... what happened is what we dont understand it came from where who knows... this was all over what nothing ..cuz a girl cant like a guy what the ******** is all i can put together ... it was me drivin lauren in passenager seat then mandi and damion in the back i drove them to the park at like night time to meet up with some friends to play hind and go seek ... john misses california ******** this winter s**t... but we were like well should we yea i opened my door then i was ******** nipples are out to start with... then mandi and damion get out me and lauren stay listenin to black and yellow then fireworks came on ... then it went off mandi and damion get back in then this ***** guy comes up and his like yall gonna ******** with us and im like naw but we ******** and i guess that ******** up lauren cuz then she was like ******** is that what you see me as ... i didnt know what to do cuz she was cryin and im lookin at mandi and damion and there like she's jokin right... then she catched a ride with her mom and left .... makes me mad cuz i didnt do it .... then that set me off the rest of the night when i got home i was taken a shower and im like ... all i have to do is full her up and go under and leave this place like i filled the tub up and was goin under but then i thought of bryce ... how he left me ... the pain it leaves me but that was his choice a choice that i live though some deep s**t ... then i look at myself and god im a alright guy maybe not the most well rounded but im goo enough to take home to mom ...then ******** her... why my mind is programed to a sex , drugs, a bozze what the ******** my god didnt make this world for me to ******** with it but no i live on the edge waiting to drop like its nothing when i leave people will miss me i know that but i cant straighten my back and find my backbone no ... ******** life i mean i like it but thats the point gooinng gay so ******** you all