....i finally put lauren to an end i didnt want to of course but then im not gonna mess with somebody that doesnt even want me... but i know she still cares or something cuz she texted a multil friend of mine and he was like lauren was like what yall doin... but if she wants to be friends thats ok but i cant do this girlfriend s**t like i was thorn like i had suide thoughts like omg thats not me and like i was masterbating like i had no sense of god i would of gave a lot up to have her but time will tell i guess ...s**t i hate myself i just wanna go die before i do soemthing i"ll regret i cant get over s**t like this like i have somebody that i could ******** but i dont care about them i want lauren deleted all her s**t she liked to text more than pysically talk thats what ******** you up too dont do that face to face... im on my way to self detuction