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So I have this weird... description I guess... of my personality most people don't know about or have never heard me speak of.

I have one would say three people inside me, though I don't have multi-personality syndrome oddly enough. Though, I am bi-polar, which dictates which personality is shown.

The first personality I have comes about only when I am in the depressive phase of my bipolar disorder. It is the part of me that is all forgiving, and all accepting. It is the part of me that couldn't stand to hurt anyone, not their feelings or them. The kind of person who just wants everyone to be happy. The negative side of this phase is I am also very needy, I want love and attention, I need to be constantly pushed by someone else or I just sit around doing nothing and being miserable. Most people find me really annoying or creepy when I am like this, though I can also be an amazing friend like this. Stage I am unfortunately stuck in right now.

Then there is my second personality, this one only comes around when I am in my manic phase. When I get like this I stop caring about other people, I retreat into my own little world and give everyone else the finger. I care not about hurting anyone, physically or emotionally, all I care about is honesty and what is right. I start thinking about how to conquer the world for the greater good and thinking it doesn't matter how many people I kill as long as in the end I can change the world for the better of all man kind. In this phase most people think I am a total a*****e, but for some reason end up being more sociable than in the other phase without even realizing it because I stop caring what other people think about me.

The third side of me is a mix between the two, when I get like this I have to have perfect balance which is very rare. However in my third phase I am all knowing, and all wise. I know the answers to all of life's problems but also enjoy the knowledge to fix them with subtlety. In this phase people most enjoy being around me, and the few close friends I have met me when I was in this phase, they are the few people who actually understand me.