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30th-Jan-2009 10:44 pm - [protected post] Loneliness...
waycest
There's only one I want to be with right now. And until I get that one to understand, in my mind, it's substituted by the person of Frank Iero. Frank holds me at night, or during the day, when I need it. To cuddle. to be company, when I feel so lonely.
I love my mom, a lot. And I want to be there for her. But theres only so much I can take of her presence. She complains about Jenni all the time, when Gary is killing her like Kevin is Killing Jenni. I can see it, but they can't. Love does make you blind. And when you want it but can't get that kind of love, you start to go crazy and pretending like Frank Iero is your boyfriend. It seems like the perfect solution. Create this super hot person in your mind, rich, everything, without any bad qualities, and then you go insane with it. Because it's so perfect.
She won't realize how taking the net will literally bring me to my downfall. Because then I can't talk to the ones who keep me slightly attatched to reality. And without them, I'll fall and not be me anymore.

P.s. I am so friends locking this one because I don't want her to catch my posts anymore. This means signing out of it too

30th-Jan-2009 03:32 am - [protected post] Desolation Row
waycest
Hell Yeah! They played it today at 3:33 am on the radio that like only played Famous Last Words and the Black Parade. Maybe they'll begin to play more MCR. Hopefully at like later times of the day when people are actually up. MCR kicks a**. ******** M. Manson who made fun of Frank's shortness and s**t like that. I thought his music was good, but I do not support him after hearing that s**t. MCR are my homies. <3

29th-Jan-2009 05:25 am - [protected post] rant for today...
waycest
Feb 16th my life begins the first step of going to hell. That step is that my mom starts dayshift. It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't at like 6 to whatever. What the hell? Like I have to have some way to get to school and all. It's going to be getting up earlier and going somewhere else until I have to get on the bus to school. ******** this is going to be so hard. and I won't want to do it.
Ugh wait till step 2...