We all know it's going to happen... People die and we get on with our lives, sometimes it hurts but sometimes it really is ok right?
She ahs been in the hospital, in and out, for the past two years now...
Everybody has been telling her "Grandma... You'r not superwoman... Your dying, you need to take better care of yourself..." She didn't listen.
So why is it now that she makes everyone care for her, and stop their lives to prolong her death?
I have had to play house for 2 weeks now, getting up at 9:00 to take care of my littel brother untill 11:30 when mum finally gets home.
I cook breakfast, I clean up breakfast.
I make lunch, I clean up lunch.
With any luck mum is home for dinner and I clean up.
After dinner is 5 bed time snacks, because of course he won't go to bed untill mum is home. I know it may sound rotten to say... But she's going to die no matter what we do... I dont think its fair for her to put so much on every body else, when the reason she's dying is her own damn fault.
She is 79 and she still smokes, her heart has holes in it and thats why she is dying, she has tissue cancer from smoking and her organs liker her heart and things can't repair themselves... But every day she smokes and doens't care about it untill she is in the hospital with a tube down her throat. Today I was suppose to be able to go and be a kid and go see a movie with my boyfriend, yet I couldn't because she needed everybody to stop what they were doing so we could go and make her feel better about her slow suicide...
I hate playing mother and i hate not being able to do anything because i have to be a good crutch.
Whatever b***h... When you die I hope your life was worth it...
 Teardrops_of_Ivy · Sat Jun 10, 2006 @ 05:52am · 3 Comments |
