Dear Journal,
You wanna know what pisses me off? People who've gone their whole life being bad and don't believe in the 'no sex before marrige'. When they end up pregnant, it's no big deal and they want to just terminate the pregnancy (horrible) or give it up for adoption (easy way out)! Here I am holding off until I get married, going to college, and I can't have kids! It's not fair! It's [********] not fair! I can't stand the fact someone like that can get pregnant! Why, God? Why? How could you give them that preciouse gift of life? There, I said it! Happy? I questioned You!
For those of you who don't know me, I was diognosed with a medical condition called Turner Syndrome when I was fifteen. In short, it's a dissorder which attacked my ovaries at conception (so I'm not producing any eggs); so, I can't have children.
I just feel useless, you know? I believe a woman should go to school, get married and start a family. I can't start a family so my whole deal, I guess, is I don't feel womanly. Sure I'm feminine, have breasts, love pink, frills, and hate getting dirty- but all because I can't children, I don't feel like a woman. *breaks down* I hate myself...
Tora-chan
 Tora Yukino · Wed Jun 21, 2006 @ 01:50am · 2 Comments |
