June 8th, 2018
I called in sick to work today. I couldn't stand the thought of having to go in. I didn't sleep well last night (though I did sleep from emotional exhaustion) and my face was still swollen when I woke up. My first instinct was the check my phone for a text from my now ex but of course there was nothing there. How long does this last? I mean, we were dating for years, how long does it take for the hurt to stop and to fall out of old patterns? How long until he can bring himself to talk to me again? Can we even still be friends or have I lost him for good?
I know this is what I needed to do. I've wanted to do this for months now but I wasn't prepared for it. I've never ended a relationship before, I had no idea it would be like this. I so badly want to talk to him and know he's okay but he told me he needed time and space and if I want any chance of keeping him in my life I have to respect his wishes but it's horrible to think that I hurt him so badly.
I still can't stop crying.
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