It's hailing outside. Right now we're under tornado watch, so hopefully nothing bad happens. It's hailing so hard that you can't see past the backyard. o_O
Anyway, school's been fine. Now that it's started I don't really have any creative crap to throw in here, sadly. </3 Oh well. Anyway, after my mom filed a complaint to my Bible teacher he told me that he was sorry. Three times. I could tell that he felt absolutely miserable over what he'd said. I try to be nice towards him, but sometimes I feel neutral. Nevertheless I don't act rude or emotionless towards him, that wouldn't be right. At first he was awkward towards me, but now its cool between us. I've noticed that he's not gossiping as much as he used to about people.
I think that I'll have two A's and one B, along with a C by my next report card. I keep on doing badly on my Vocab tests because I keep on doing a certain part of the tests wrong. So, I'm going to fix that up, and if I've got luck on my side I'll get an A in English. Geometry is just Geometry for me. But you want to know something funny? I understand Geometry better than Algebra. In Algebra, I can sit there and stare at the problem and not have ANY idea of what to do next. If only my teacher last year had actually been understandable. He'd say something and I'd have no idea what words came out of his mouth. /: I finished Algebra with... a 40. On the quizzes I'd just guess on the answers. Rather depressing.
No one has really been posting in the role plays as of lately. But in the ones that are being posted in I lack the writing flare to post. Instead, I've been playing FFXI. Damonta, my best friend on there, is always online so whenever I go on we meet up and he helps me. He can get grumpy sometimes, but he never lashes out at me and whenever I tell him to calm down he does so. He's a real sweet-heart. He's ill-literate, but everyone on FFXI is so it doesn't bother me anymore. On Gaia it does but when I log into the game I just remind myself that yelling at everyone on the game isn't going to do anything. XD So I just let it go. whee Damonta is pretty bad at spelling, so sometimes it takes me a while to figure out what he's saying. Neverless, in the end I figure out what he says.
I keep on getting ignored during conversations. Whenever my mom or someone else is talking and I try to say something no one bothers to even look at me so I just let my words draw off. But whenever I say something funny everyone pays attention. Wow I feel appreciated. stare
Because of that and several other things I've been feeling depressed lately for no real appearant reason. I tend to get more upset over than things than I should and there are certain times when it completely cuts down at me. But, I'm incredibly good at hiding at my emotions so it doesn't show. Which is good. I crave attention but at the same time I don't. I hate it when my mom or someone else gets all... upset over me. I despise it when people pity me and it makes me feel weak. However at the same time I want someone to pay attention to me and make me feel as if I can actually trust someone. Interesting how the human mind works at times.
That's all for now. I do need to start questing for my fox items back, along with one of my kimonos. But with my inactivity on Gaia I think that's going to take a while. ): Anyway, sorry for suddenly making this journal entry angst. D:
 MythicalYoko · Wed Sep 13, 2006 @ 11:54pm · 4 Comments |
