I don't want to be here anymore. I miss Sky WAAAY too much!! I said a few things to her yesterday that I didn't exactly mean. I say a lot of things to some people that maybe I shouldn't....I didn't have a reason for what I said. I wish I knew how to start conversations, I've always been in the background with most people that it's not a skill I ever learned. I don't mean to make her upset, I don't mean to make anyone upset. So why does it happen? I'm not suicidal when I say this, but....would the people I know be better off without me? I wonder that every time I screw up and I never seem to answer myself. I Love Sky so much...she wants me to talk about stuff I want to talk about instead of everything being about her, but I don't like talking about myself because every other time in the past it's leaded to me being conceded. Another reason why I don't talk as much. I've never actually tried to become a part of a conversation, even if the chance hits me in the face. I've always just BEEN a part of peoples conversations. I just want Sky to forgive me....
 Phoenix Maristat · Tue Jan 11, 2005 @ 08:00pm · 1 Comments |
