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So you want to know what it's like being me?

	I feel like I've died inside...I want "us" back.
	I feel like I've died inside...I want "us" back.


I feel alone, broken and lost. The only person I truely and deeply Love isn't sure if she loves me anymore...well she says she loves me just not as a boyfriend anymore. She says its been building up in her over a couple of months. I know I've hurt her and I don't know exactly how much I've hurt her, but I want to make it better I really do. I don't want her to leave "us". I'll compromise, I look at her view more often, hell I'll even be selfish if she wants, I'll do literally anything to have her back. I know it's only been a year, but that year has been the best year I could ever remember. I know we've fought, but we worked it out. Or I thought we did. I don't want to hurt her, and she said she wanted some time to get her thoughts straight. I'll wait forever for her, but it hurts so much to think if she starts dating someone else. It's not that I'm jelouse, it's because I Love her so much!! I don't think she even knows how much she means to me. She says she wants to be my friend, do you know how much that tears me up to hear? No boyfriend wants to hear those words. I will be her friend, but every day I will hurt. Every day I will cry after seeing her, knowing that we were "one" before. I Love her so much. I'll compromise, I'll be selfish, I've told her I would change to get her back, and for some reason she thinks that's low. The things we've argued about in the past were not that important enough to me to have us break up over. I do trust her friends, I honestly do. I just needed time to think about a lot of things, I was going to tell her on friday, but she acted like something was wrong so again I put her frist and tried to help. Now, I don't even know what to feel, I cried last night til it hurt. I'm still all shakey and depressed because I don't know what to think. I'll give her as much time as she needs to figure things out...I'll always be here for here waiting. I will ALWAYS Love her. Anything at all to be hers again. We can start fresh if she wants, from the very beggining. God, I Love her so much!! I feel like crying again, but crying isn't going to bring her back. I don't know what to do. Phoenix Maristat · Sat Feb 19, 2005 @ 01:48pm · 5 Comments


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	Listen, I know what you're going through and all, but please don't change yourself just to be with her. That owuld make her love someone other than you. Think about it, if you two can't be yourselves just to stay together, it isn't owrth it. Remember, I'm here for you...even though I'm grounded sweatdrop Offline Isaac Norwill · Community Member · Mon Feb 21, 2005 @ 06:15am


	I just don't know what to do, I mean..it feels like it's killing me from the inside out. I don't want her to love someone else if I did change. Hell I just want her to Love me again. I don't know how to help her though, should I let her think it through by herself or should her and I talk about it? She lives in the "right now" moment, but it's hurting me so much. I wish I knew what to do. And thanks, I know you are here for me one way or another. I'm afraid after she figures everything out that she'll start dating someone else and then who know what else after that, that scares me so much. I Love her, and I know some people think that just because we are young that we don't know what Love is. What if Love is undescribable? What if it's just the greatest feeling someone could ever experience in their lives? Would someone even know they were in Love? I know I how I feel about her, and I want her to work things out, but what scares me the most is that we'll never be together again. She says she isn't looking for anyone else, and I believe her. But I know that maybe, just maybe someone is looking for her. And if they sweep her off her feet like I did, that would destroy me. I can't stand the thought of her with someone else, in a realationship or just sexually. sigh I need help..I Love her so much, I don't think she knows just how much. Offline Phoenix Maristat · Community Member · Mon Feb 21, 2005 @ 04:35pm


	Do you tell her you love her so much every day? I know i dont know you much, or whats going on between you too..but usually talking things out helps alot. I can tell you care, no love her so much.. and i know it would hurt to see her with some one else..but if thats what makes her ahppy..and if thats what she realy wants..after all that ya'll have been through..then mabey its for teh best. But you two should really try to work things out. Offline BettytheGreat · Community Member · Mon Mar 07, 2005 @ 09:14pm


	Thanks Diamond, I also agree that if she does want to be with someone else then I'm not going to stop her. Just be there for her if something with that one happens I guess. I'm giving her as much space as I can right now and I'm not sure if that's good or bad. sigh I don't know how to feel anymore. Offline Phoenix Maristat · Community Member · Mon Mar 07, 2005 @ 09:24pm


	all i can say not knowing the complete situation is just that if you change your selfe and she is back with you you will regret it for the rest of your life becasue your love will be something that of a lie. just take it day by day and see with time what fate decides ~hei dragonblade~ Offline Hei DragonBlade · Community Member · Fri Mar 18, 2005 @ 04:22pm

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