• Is it OK to love?
    To give into the sweet, threatening drug?
    To ask, and be denied?
    Hear the pain and lies,
    Is it worth the pain?
    Does the threat outweigh the gain?
    Are answers to be given?
    More confused by the minute,
    Please help me stay here.
    I need a rope to stay clear.
    Water above my head,
    Head and heart full of dread.
    I can't say the words,
    They fly away like birds.
    Afraid to come out,
    Inside my head they shout.
    'Help me!' is what they say;
    But my minds too far away.
    Read my eyes,
    See through the lies.
    I say I'm OK,
    When really, I'm fading away.
    Into nothingness I'm falling.
    Apathy is again calling.
    Her voice is sugar to my ears,
    To discard the bitter tears.
    Nothing left to feel;
    Nothing seems really real.
    I can't truly know,
    Cause I only watched the show.
    No active participation needed;
    Your advice left unheeded.
    Can't you see how much I've fallen,
    How I can't hear you calling?
    The darkness ate your voice.
    With no options, no choice,
    I left you;
    Not knowing it wasn't true.
    I needed you to yell louder,
    So I could wake up and hear.
    But you didn't know.
    So you let me go.
    Drowning and drowning,
    I say goodbye.
    Once, like a bird, I could fly.
    But no longer, not anymore.
    A wall stands where once was a door.
    I don't care, my prison, my castle.
    No emotions left to battle.
    I'm alone and crying,
    For no reason I can see.
    Nothing left to do,
    But write this poem for you.
    Saying goodbye and good luck,
    I'll smile and pretend I'm not stuck.
    Please read my eyes and see,
    The words my mouth can't release.