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I must not be explaining things thoroughly, because no matter what I say, it only seems to come out as garbled words that turn into great offense to the listener.

Let me also make one thing clear. If anyone finds what I write to be offensive then I suggest you don't continue reading or possibly don't comment on it because I REALLY don't want to rip someone's head off. I'll only regret it later and it will lead into further violent acts.

I have come to my own conclusion that I may, quite possibly, be emotionally unstable at the moment due to stress from school and the like.

I have many pet peeves that are usually pushed often by even the closest of friends but I try to avoid saying anything in order to avoid conflict. Note that I say TRY to avoid, meaning that I am NOT always successful. Not only that but anything I say almost always manages to be misunderstood. That is a pet peeve in itself when I find myself in a situation where I have completely failed to articulate correctly. Another is allowing myself to be angered at someone who has pushed a pet peeve. If you haven't noticed yet, my largest peeve is tha fact that I HAVE pet peeves. But I do not wish to even begin to list the things that can piss me off in one day. Besides, its probably better for you if you don't know how much you irk me because its usually something that you do every damned day but I smile and find my own ways to forget about it.

When it comes to the stress factor, I think I have MORE than heavily stated this. In fact, the stress is also what makes the peeve buttons 10 times easier to hit.

The stress ALSO triggers thousands of mood swings. I can have days when I wake up in a fairly good mood but at the end of the day, it often manages to quickly eat away into pure, dripping angst. But it doesn't always stop there. Sometimes it goes to such a degree that I become greatly depressed and often hold back many tears and will often take a long shower to wash away the impurities, both physical and mental.

This doesn't even begin to explain how easily things can twist into even larger complications and I doubt anyone wants to try to see the darkest corners of my mind so I'm stopping it here because, now that I've written down my dispute, I feel much better and am going to go do other joyful things.