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"Why do you always have to be so selfish? Why can't you just be contented with what you already have?"
I see sadness in your eyes,
You asked for something that's impossible to get. You worked hard for it. You risked your life for it. You gave your best. You told yourself that you could do it. You think you know everything. You pushed everyone away just to get a step ahead. You thought they're useless. You thought that by doing so, it would make your journey a little lighter. You've thrown everything you've had.. Including your life.
"I will succeed for sure.." -that's what you told yourself after taking another step. You felt that you've won already. It's as if nothing could stop you now.
But then things turned out the other way. You were afraid that this would happen. You didn't know that it WOULD happen. Or maybe you did, but you just ignored it, thinking that things would turn out the way you want it to. You were brimming with energy, with confidence.. With pride. But not until now.
You fell flat on your face.
BAM!
Just like that.
You thought you would win. You thought you were there.
And then you told yourself: "This can't be happening..."
Well..
It just did.
Brushing yourself off angrily, you then refused to accept what happened. You screamed at everyone. You screamed at your friends. Wait.. Hold on a sec.. You pushed everyone away, remember? Then they didn't have anything to do with your failure. Which means you have no one.
You're alone.
...
Then you grew insane. You start to do things.. Bad things.. Things that you don't usually do. Things that a normal [good] person don't usually do. You thought you would never lose.
Heh..
We don't always get what we want. You were wrong.
And then you cried your heart out. You were filled with hate, depression, etc.. You want revenge. You want to kill the one who made it impossible for you to get what you want. Well.. If such person ever existed, that is. Doi.
Why can't you just let go of that little something which you cannot own, something that was not meant for you? You feel sorry for yourself. After all, life is not all about you.
And then..
You get back to normal. After that incident, you've sworn not to do it again. You grew happy. You finally told yourself that you are happy with what you have. You start to make friends again. You start a 'new life'.
Sigh..
Then after all that...
You do it again.
...
I pity you.
 Roelani08 · Fri Jun 08, 2007 @ 06:09am · 0 Comments |
