*sigh*
well heres what happend.
Jen got in to her first car acciendent. I walked away fine... but my sunfire is totaled ($7400 is estimated cost to fix it). I was driving down the 60 freeway in the 2nd lane and all I can really remember is a white Pickup truck in the fast/carpool lane cut me off. I remember breaking and seeing the bed of the truck coming towards my car. So, I tried to get out of the way... but I think in doing that I lost control of the car. I Swerved lost control and hit the center divider (if you drive on the 60 before the 91 junction and after university bridge construction you will see a red scar on the divider... thats me). I remember the air bags going off and then my car ended up in the 3rd lane facing traffic. A nice man by the name of Leon helped me out and stayed with me till the CHP officer arrived. No other cars were hit. The only damage was to my car. (I'm thankful that I didn't hit any one)
After the acciendent I went to urgent care, and I they did x-rays and I was fine.
Well... since my car was totaled I have had to drop out of the Art Insitute. Without a car theres no way for me to get to school. But, Hopefully I will go back during the summer. I have 6months till the loan people will come after me wanting thier money back.
Currently I'm going to have to look for a full time job... and continue to work at slavecrest. Maybe I will beable to earn enough money to buy a new car. We are considering me working at a temp place.
I wasn't able to go and visit jakki like I wanted to... and I was really looking foward to (and I should have known better then to truely look foward to events cause they just get smashed).
I don't handle these things everywell...So for the past 3 days I've cried.... and I bet I will continue too. At times I wish I didn't walk away from the accident (yes I know thats really bad to say... but... yeah). The only time I find peace is when i'm sleeping. My mind is full of doubt, questions, confusion, fear.
It seems as soon as I find balance I get knocked down again I think my happiness peaked at age 16 or 17... since then its been all down hill.
On a different note: last week was Debbie's surgery... and they didn't take the Mass out of her chest. They did a scope of debbie's chest and found out It was to risky to open debbies chest for removal. Debbie lacks the protective muscle around her heart, and some of her nerves are abnormally placed so any type of chest surgery is extremly dangerous. So we still don't know if she has cancer or what the growth is.
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