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Another day has come and gone, tomorrow and the next day will be the same. Once again, I feel empty. I'm at a loss as to how I feel about anything right now. It's hard to describe, this feeling of nothingness. I'm not sad, I'm not happy, I'm not angry, I'm not anything right now. Nothing feels right anymore, not that it ever did, but it's even more wrong now. The world seems so strange, so unsettling. It's just so empty, even when there are people all around. You just want to crawl into yourself, so deep that no one can see you, and hide there with your eyes closed. You're not afraid of them, you just don't like them. They have steel in their eyes and their gazes feel like knife cuts. They're all dead. But even though they're dead, they feel so many confusing feelings. Things like rage, hatred, lust, sadness, happiness, loneliness, and content. They're dead, but they can feel. You are alive, and you don't feel anything. Nothing at all, just the occassional flicker of emotion. When you see these flickers, you act as if you feel something, anything. But you only act as if you feel because the dead people would think there was something wrong with you if you didn't. You're not broken, they are.

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