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i cant hold onto life no longer,
its just been too much.
i cant cry any more,
its just too hard..
andd everytime i start to believe
that i would be able to pull it together,
theres always something to ruin it.
its been too much i cant handle it,
all my mind is saying now is
"suicide" emo
i cant do that either, its too much for friends and family
but hey what do they know?
they arent in my shoes.
they wont care either way,
cuz they dont know how my life is really like
&&
no one has even seen the real me.
and i know it will be costing
a lotta money for the sucide
but what am i to do with life
its all pointless now,
but the thing is that
it kills me
and they dont even know it
they dont know how hard it is
&&yet
they think they do.
its sad how they try to understand me
when i know people never will
even when they try really hard
they willl never see the real me that i hide
beneath all the smiles and laughs
is a heartfilled with anger
beneath all the happiness is sadness
& depression and emo.
they never will understand how i feel.
...they never will.
-sighs-
...shirlee.