I’m sitting at home
and I’m feeling so alone.
I can’t get the thoughts of you out of my head
Every smile, every laugh, every word you ever said
and these thoughts just stretch out the pain
and I wonder if things will ever be the same.
I see the way he looks at you,
and I understand it all to well,
and I can’t help but wonder if you feel for him.
or if I still have a fighting chance to right my wrongs
I’m no mind reader but I wish I was,
Maybe then I could understand the reasons
the reasons you pull me in
only to make me feel pushed away.
I’ve tried so hard to fix things
to return things to the way they were
back before I messed up, before I lost you
I’ve worked hard to fix myself for you
but sometimes the pain gets too much
and I corrupt myself because of you.
All those sad love songs play through my head
I listen to them over and over, hoping to feel better.
No it doesn’t help, I don’t know why I expect it to
cause everything brings me back to memories of you.
This also reminds me of my life.
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