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If you've ever read more than one of Rob Brezny's astrology columns, even for those of us who don't have much faith in the stuff, you may have noticed that, despite its questionable application, the man has remarkable intuition. My horoscope last week quoted a clever sculptor with a talent in the delicate balancing of raw stone. He said, "It bothers me when it collapses. But since it's collapsed four times, I'm beginning to understand the stones better." And Rob? He mused that we Aquarians are at a stage like the sculptor's third collapse. Things are becoming.... dangerously close to real disaster, but also easier to see clearly.

So, there's one thing that's often been my mind lately. That is, the lengths of a pursuit, you know? Not just how far people will go, but what drives us and what makes us turn back. Have you ever read the sales books by Tom Hopkins? His "Champion's Creed" presses one particular point: do not fear failure. And yet, our drives seem to me to be centered on it. If we fail... what will become of us? You see, I knew a man once who was, ah, well, he was corruption incarnate. Paranoid, selfish, stupid, violent, petulant, his presence poisoned the air around him. I.. fear being like him. So I have become ambitious. But the image of him, my vision of failure, is always in my mind. And then, I love awesome stories. So, the books I read, the games I play, and the movies I see lately have often touched this nerve. "How to Master the Art of Selling", for instance. "Meet the Robinsons" and Final Fantasy VII. And then, "Pursuit of Happyness". I felt... low. Paralyzed by fear of failure, I'm feeling how cheaply earned my possessions are and how little I've really progressed in my ambitions. So, I'm thinking about this "third collapse"....