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what is it?
I can't stop thinking about things.....
Things that scare me.
who's there?
In the back of my mind.
Creeping like a shaodw of hate and pain.
Like a power holding me in a cage.
I'm not the only one,
who you can torcher.
I'm not the only one here.
Why must you?
Why must those thought tinvade my mind everytime I see you?
A strange icy grip that makes me sweat from the heat.
I always want to fall to my knees when I'm around you.
Tell me somthing.
Why do I beg?
Only in the end to hurt thouse who are dear.
I wake with a sore throat as if I've been screaming in my sleep.
Why....
Just asnwer me this.
Why must I live in agony?
I thought that I could escape from my pain.
Put the life I lead.
Ends up depressing me even more then anything else could.
I have everything I could want.
Freinds.
Hope.
A wonderful girlfriend that's always there for me.
But... I'm still trown in to a depresion anytime my mind wanders.
I should keep it from doing that but I can't.
I can't help it if I get hurt.
If I get scared or frightend.
If I happen to be happy and then mad or sad.
I'm just built like that.
I'm just a human being that's bad luck loves to strike.
An inocont angel that lives in the dark with no light but
the one that she sees in her mind.
Warmth is only from the touch of someones hand.
Pain and screams in her head.
Like a echo of the past.
Never to see the persent only to live in a world of fear and hate.
A painful world that I fear.
I cling.
I scratch.
I yell.
Anything to escape.
I don't know who I am.
What I am.
What.....

What am I talking about?

I'm probebly just depressed again.....
I need...... Faith.... Hope...
I need my Rose...

RaisaRose
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Commented on: Fri Aug 24, 2007 @ 01:16am


	And I'll be with you forever. I promise. Whenever you need me, I'll be there. Don't give up, my love.

Commented on: Fri Aug 24, 2007 @ 01:32am


	i know.

firekindletheXXI
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The_Rose_Of_ the_Night
Community Member

Commented on: Sat Sep 01, 2007 @ 07:41pm


	aww, you two are so cute! You should see me and key at times on gaia, he's so sweet, he gives me gifts all the time and he calls me such sweet names, but you guys are a way cuter couple!

Commented on: Sat Sep 01, 2007 @ 08:03pm


	giggle Aw... thanks hun. hugles

Rose_ladyofAvo
Community Member

Commented on: Thu Dec 27, 2007 @ 10:07am


	'cept now he has his damn emiko, how i hate her! you know, a few months ago, dustin aka keyblade asked me if she could be my brides maid of honor! i do not think so even if me and dustin get back together!

Commented on: Fri Dec 28, 2007 @ 05:21am


	oh wow... Amber... I'm sorry.

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