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~*~Azure*Dreams~*~
No one cares...

Yeah, I could say as much as I want here, and no one would care. But I do anyway, I have no idea why. It dosen't matter. It makes me feel better I guess. Or more depressed, it varies I guess. I have only a few friends, and with them I always feel out of place. I don't even know why I am even friends with one of them. All she ever does is point out wrong things and make me feel stupid. And the other one is to self absorbed to even have the slightest idea how I feel. I'm really lonely. And I hate my family. And I'm too dumb to make my living environment better between my sister and I. I really should tell my mother everything I know. God, I'm driveling. Well, it dosen't even matter, I guess, because no one will read it and if they do they won't care.

My whole life is screwed. Why even try and fix it? All I know is that I wish life coud be like in anime or manga. My life would be interesting and there would be someone who cares about me. That'll never happen though. Ever. I've accepted it. My life will be full of disappointments and loneliness.






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Kiri Akurei
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commentCommented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 12:23pm
*GLOMP*

I lurv you! I haven't been on gaia recently, but I've been checking your LJ... And I know you are probably dealing with a lot more, but I do understand how it feels hurting, and keeping it all inside! Thats why... I once had serious thoughts about killing myself... and its good to type, let it out! Keeping it inside will hurt worse...
and I swear,no matter what, even thought we barely get to see each other anymore, I will always consider you my friend! If you ever need/want to talk to me, just call! I can give you #s if you need them.
Sometimes life feels pointless, dull, and painful. But, you gotta grit your teeth and get through it. I know its hard... but I swear, it will get better. I know how insane I sound. It just takes a LOT of time.
If your friends make you feel that way, don;t be friends with them! That not how friends should be. Espically the one who makes you feel stupid, because I know that your anything BUT that. I You don't deserve to be treated that way.
Don't accept life as it is! Do something, change it! If those friends are being pricks, stop hanging out with them. (I know this is easier said than done, but if they make you feel that bad...) If you want a better relation ship with Michelle, then tell her that, and try. If you hate your family, try to work on moving out, or get out and go somewhere for a while.

hopefully, at least some of that is helpfull...


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commentCommented on: Fri Feb 03, 2006 @ 02:52am
you should come hang out with me when i'm not acting retarded. ^__^; i'm not really as dumb as i act. plus i like you. you're really nice. (and i'm guessing those two friends are stacy and..cynthia maybe? ^^; ) welllll.. anyways. i'd love to draw with you sometime if you'd like. or you could just come over and we could play ragnarok or something. ^^; just know despite how i act. i do infact care. i hope you feel better.



Dragon Fruit
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Aibou Sephira
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commentCommented on: Tue Apr 04, 2006 @ 05:03pm
stare Emo


commentCommented on: Sun Sep 24, 2006 @ 02:04am
Sister. Emo. Emo sister. You make fun of youself. "No one cares, no one cares. I'm going to go cut myself..."
Family's, Friend's. None of them are perfect. Be thankful for the ones you got in your life!!!
You could have none.
We love you! Get over it!
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ShellBean
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