IF U LOOK IN MY EYES U SEE A GIRL WHO UNDERSTANDS AND IS ALWAYS CHEERY. BUT IF U LOOK IN MY HEART ALL U SEE IS SADNESS AND DISAPPOINTMENT. I KNOW NO1 LIKES ME AND I HAVE HATRED TOWORDS PEOPLE WHO SHOW OFF, ARE SNOBY, AND SLUTISH, BUT THEY GET THE GUYS. MY LOVE LIFE HAS BEEN CRAPPY 1 BREAKUP RIGHT AFTER ANOTHER. I DONT THINK THEY REALLY LIKE ME THO FOR WHO I AM, OR HOW I LOOK. I FEEL LIKE IVE BEEN LEFT OUT IN THE RAIN WITH NO1 BUT ME TO SUFFER, I LOOK I C PEOPLE IN HAPPY RELATIONSHIPS THEN I RELIZE WHAT I DONT HAVE. IVE GOT A FEELING OF EMPTYNESS LIKE MY HEART IS A PUZZLED AND HALF OF IT IS MISSING. EVERY1 TELLS ME HOW LUCKY I AM TO LOOK LIKE ME BUT ITS ONLY MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO SAY IT TO ME NO1 BESIDES THAT. I JUST WISH SOMEDAY THE PERFECT GUY WOULD COME AND TAKE MY HEART AWAY heart SO IT CAN BE FULL AND I WILL LOSE THE FEELLING OF EMPTYNESS, TO GET MY FIRST KISS BY THE 1 I LOVE IS A WISH OF MINE WHICH MY NOT BE GRANTED CUZ OF PEOPLE WHO LABLE ME AS EMO, GOTH, ECT. ITS THEM THAT MAKE MY LIFE UNFULFILLING ALWAYS WITH THE CRUEL JOKES ABOUT HOW STUPID I AM OR HOW I LOOK/ACT. IM CRAZY WITH MY FRIENDS WE CAN DO STUPID STUFF GET IN TROUBLE AND LAUGHT OUR FREAKKIN HEADS OFF AND NOT HAVE A CARE IN THE WORLD. BUT ITS WHEN INCONCIDERET PEOPLE MAKE FUNN OF ME IS WHEN IT HURTS. I CRY EVERYDAY JUST WISHING THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE RIGHT, BUT I CANT SHOW ANY1 THAT I CRY BECAUSE ITS A FORM OF WEEKNESS AND THOSE INCONCIDERET PEOPLE ONLY LIVE TO C PEOPLE CRY. SO I CRY IN THE DEAD OF NIGHT HOPING PEOPLE WOULD CHANGE. HOPING FOR MY HEART TO BE RESTORED HOPING FOR LOVED ONES TO COME BACK SO I DONT NEED TO FEEL DEPRESSED ANY MORE! BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE THEY WILL SAY STUFF ABOUT ONE ANOTHER, LOVED ONES WONT COME BACK FROM THE DEAD, AND NO1 WILL BE THE PERFECT PERSON. I DISPISE THOSE WHO SHOW OFF THERE DISEVING WAYS THE WAY THEY MAKE THEM SELVES SEEM ALL "HIGH AND MIGHTY" BECAUSE THEY ARE STONED/HIGH, DRUNK, OR THE FACTTAHT THEY CANT STOP TELLING SOME1 THAT THEY WENT TO 2ND OR 3RD WITH A PERSON RUBING IT IN TO THERE FACES, LIKE TAKING THERE HEADDS AND RUBING IT AGAINST COLD HARD CONCREAT UNTILL THERE SCREAMS OF PAIN CANT VE HEARD ANYMORE. ONLY IF PEOPLE WERE DIFFRENT, I WOULD B LESS ANGRY LESS UPSET LESS HUMILIATED AND I WOULD HAVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT THEM. BUT IF I COULD TURN BAC TIME I WOULD CHANGE ALOT OF THINGS. AND IF THE DESIVING PEOPLE OF TODAY WOULD STOP CALLING ME emo gothic slow stupid jugs or anything elsethey said which cant be writen down I WOULD BE DIFFRENT I WOULDNT CRY AT NIGHT TRYING TO TELL MY SELF ITS OK THERE JUST PEOPLE THEY WILL DO THAT. BUT IF THEY RUIN MY LIFE THEN THEY ARE NOT HUMAN THEY ARE ONE OF SATANS DEMONS WHO CAME APON EARTH TO PUT HELL IN EVERY1S LIFE. NO1 WILL GO OUT WITH ME BECAUSE OF WHUT PEOPLE SAY I AM. I DONT NEED A LABLE I DONT EVEN LABLE MY SELF, IF I GIVE U THE PERMISION TO TELL ME WHO I AM THEN GO AHEAD BUT IF I AM NOT WHUT U SAY I AM U BETTER STFU OR I WILL RAIN ALL OF HELL ON UR LIFE FOR EVERY BECAUSE U MADE ME SUFFER....
 rockr 4eva · Thu Sep 13, 2007 @ 09:49pm · 2 Comments |
