Where i wonder why anybody ever chooses to hang out with me... I feel HORRIBLE! Since today was mason's birthday i took him out and spent the day with him, expecting for us to be able to have a nice time hanging out with one another, probably outdoors, and making the day just as wonderful as i possibly could since he was a little bit wary about turning 18... Well the weather decided to totally ******** those plans by downpouring all freaking day so we ended up staying inside either at the library or in gateway. And while he appeared to have at least a decent time, for the life of me i couldn't think of a single damn thing to do in either of those places... So i basically followed him around while we did whatever came to his mind as something that he wanted to do within reason... And i pretty much followed around as arm candy, completely at a loss as to what i could do to improve the day and incapable, for some reason, of thinking of something fun to do... I hate that about myself... I am damn near completely incapable of improvising... if my plans don't work out how i want them to i'm lost... and it usually ends up being the other person's decision what we do instead... So i feel horrible because i'm half sure that he had an, if anything, mediocre day when i was so looking forward to making it be an exceptional one.... -sigh- i feel like such a failure...
 mistress_of_insanity · Mon Oct 01, 2007 @ 06:26am · 2 Comments |
