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I Sit Here Crying.. I Take My Shaky Hands And Tap On The Keyboard The
Very Same Which I Typed "I Love You" To My Love I Loved
I Hope There`s A Reason I`m Crying.
I Hope Theres A Reason I`m Broken
He LIEDDDDD LIED LIED LIED
I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE ELSE BUT ME
I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE
I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE ELSE BUT ME
I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do I Really Want this ?
Want This Heartache!?!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ?!
crying
I Scream On The Top Of My Lungs NOOOOOOOOOOO
I Scratch The ******** Outta My Arms.
I Drag This Knife Above My Wrist And Press It So ******** HARD IN
BUT IT REMINDS ME OF HIM SO I PRESS HARDER AND HARDER GOD DAM
GOD DAM GOD DAM
WHY THE ******** AM I SO RETARDED ?!
WHY DO I WANT A LOVER ?!
WHY DO I WANT LOVE?!
WHY DO I WANT TO BE LOVED ?!

ITS KILLING ME I Take My HAnds And Shove Them In My Pockets For Maybe The Strength To STop The Torcher. But I Continue To Rip Off The Pieces Of My Life And Throw Them.

I Write Like Someone Will Care But When I Look Back I See The Dispair
Nobody Knows And Nobody Cares So Why Even Bother With This Affair?
And I Type Like I`m Really Someone Who Deserves Something More Than What I`ve Become Cuz When I Look Back And See The Dispair I Think Why Should Someone Even Care.
I Look Back Nobody Cares And When I Think About It Nobody Cares.
Ditching Me In the Lowest Places Can`t Control This Over Obsession.
And When I Think I`m All Done I Take the Razor Back And I`m Overcome
With This Fear Fear Of Drowning Out And I Fear I Won`t Be Heard

But Deep Within My torcher Of Soul
I Still Think Maybe He Cares
Why Do I Care If He Cares ?
Why Do I Mumble In This Code.

As My Parents Know Very Damn Well I Have No Friends
I Have No Life. So Hey I`m Just Stac The Unreliable
Son Of A b***h With No Life
If I Died I Wouldn`t Phase Anyone Because I Can`t
Help Anyone Worth s**t. I Try And I Mess Up/
And I Wish I Could. Because Seeing Your Friends
In Pain And Knowing Someone Else Helps Them..
Hurts So ******** Much.. I Want To Die Before
I Finish High School

One Day I Will Be Gone.
Out Of Sight.
And You Will Be So Much Happy.


I Never Wanted To Go Away But What Am I Supposed To Say
I Swear I Never Wanted To Go Away.

I Was So Happy When I Thought He Loved Me..
So Very Happy..

xRetracts to Cold Pointless Corner..x

I Guess I`ll Go Cry And Play Guitar Hero..
xTalking To Selfx

I Walk Alone... Because I Can`t Pick Others Up..
Others Can`t Pick Me Up So I Walk Alone...