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I was driving today and heard the song "How Do I Live" by LeAnna Rimmes. It's a calm song and all but for some reason it made me want to cry like a little wimp.
It's just a song.

I put those words and see them being true. Now that Nathaniel is here I don't think I could live without him being around. I've never fell so hard for anyone in my life.

When I was married yes I was in love but it was such a difficult marriage. Not to mention everything came rushing at me at once. Sex, pregnancy, marriage and the child all in less than a year. Then just like that it was gone. Neither marriage or parenthood lasted. No Anniversaries, just death and suffering.

So now here I am pacing myself so that I don't have to go through all that again. I think I've done good so far. I'm 2 years short of no sex. I don't need it because making and keeping the relationship working is what is more important to me.
There is all the time in the world for sex.

Back then it was a mere curiosity. Now I know what it's like and when the time is right I will give myself. I want it to be Nathaniel. I will not have sex, but make love because that is exactly what I feel. heart