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What's wrong with me? I can't seem to do anything right. It's funny though, I think my friends are starting to worry about me, well just a little bit. Like on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being highest worrying, they would be a 1. It's amazing because they never worry about me. NEVER. So, I am just going to get my feelings out on this thing.

It's my first entry so yeah. Oh, I should explain why my friends are slightly worried, well because I am not eatting that much. No, I am not a freak with a eatting disorder. No offense but I do eat. I just don't like to eat around my friends. They make me feel really fat, which I some what am. I'm 120 pounds and around 5'5.

That's healthy but most of my friends are so skinny, it's just not fair. They get all the guys which leaves me the losers. I did have one boyfriend though, like a couple of months ago until he dumped me for no ******** reason. He was so nice too but oh well, you have to move on, that's what everyone says. They also say I can do better but dude, no one likes me like that. They all think I am their younger sister, that they have to look out for me. Stupid boys, I want to date you not be your little sister. I don't even have siblings.

I can't wait to be older and find a guy that will actually love me and not say they love me so they can get what they want then dump me, aka my loser ex boyfriend. Why are guys like that anyway? I don't get it.

*Sigh* I should stop talking and wait for my knight in shining armor, like that is ever going to happen.