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i want to destroy a mini truck.
by melting it.
WITH A TOASTER!!!!!!!!!!!
in the dead of winter.
with the snow falling
while i'm indoors
under a blanket
that i hope doesn't catch fire
but it does
and then it ruins the couch as i run for water
but there was oil in the cup
i found out too late
the fire is then blazing
and it catches my rollar skates
and i wonder if i'll ever ride them again
and then i think of that one song on that one game
yeah that was funny
good times
but i was caught offguard because i forgot about the fire
and then i was all like
oh my bob,
what am i gonna do?
and then i realize there is no smoke alarm
and i'm coughing on the smoke
and i pass out
and when i wake up
there is cinders all around
and my neighbors didn't even call the fire department
and all is lost
but i don't really mind
i sortof get up and walk around
and smear the ashes on the house next door
and since part of the house is still burning
i take a piece of wood from the tree nextdoor
and i set the house ablaze
and i feel like painting the town red
but i would rather is wasn't a brick red
or a hot red
but more of a darker red
and then i feel like doing my makeup with red
but i realize it doesn't look good on me
and lavander definately won't work
accenting my dark circles,
so i decided on pink
which i thought was pretty awesome
but i was kinda cold,
and the fire died and now it's freezing
but was it alrays freezing?
i start to ponder
the cheers and screems encircling
and becoming indescret and indistinguishible
in the darkened haze of the white snow
and i'm blinded by it's intensity
and i cry to myself wondering
searching
waiting
and the bright lights fade
and everything turns to black
thinking about doubles
and reruns of life
which are really annoying
especially if it's of a sitcom
or another show
in the end their all gone
or comeing back one ray or another
and i just want to jab out the eyes of the annoying ones
and i wonder if anyone feels like i do
and where this is leading
and how long it's taking from my life
and why i'm even doing it
and what the point of it all is
and where the heck this came from
and why i'm just staring at the screen randomly typing
and why the tv is hurting my ears
and why i suddenly get the urge to destroy it,
maybe possibly by melting it
in a toaster

OKAY NOW I JUST GIVE UP!!!

~voice whispers in~ you know that it would fit, so you gotta-

OMB IT'S TWELVE O'CLOCK I JUST NEED SOME REST ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!
(overactive imagination when up for hours on end)