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He gave me his heart, literally. Well...not his real heart, but a representative of it...and I was rude. The necklace...the heart necklace...it was huuge! He gave it to me when we were dating, and I gave it back to him when we broke up, I left him not vice versa. Anyways...he gave it back to me just yesterday before I went to class, so I shook it and smiled a bit, I thought it was like...candy O.O It was in a tin box, really hugemungous, and when I opened it...on the side was a small slip of paper that said "I love you" ...the first part of the gift. There was red cloth on the inside with a note on top of it, I read it. This is what it said:

Dearest Lin,
When I gave you my heart...I meant for you to keep it. We're not together anymore, but I still love you. That will never change. If you use me and abuse me, I will always love you, nobody else.
Love,
Dom.


So after I read that, I picked up the red cloth and held it, I was afraid of what would be in it. Anyways...so I opened it, and of course...there was that HUGE heart necklace that he had given me for christmas. My entire face turned red...but not because I loved him back, no...I was flabbergasted O.O So, I showed it to my friend...and she told me to throw it away. I did what she asked me to do, I put his heart in the trashcan like a b***h.

All day, he told people to ask me about the present, I don't remember why. I think people thought we were dating again. .:sighs:. So Sam came to me and said "What did he give you?" I told her it didn't matter because I threw it away...which I did. She said okay and walked away. Everybody else was like "What did he give you!!?" but I wouldn't tell them. Dom. stood in the background smiling as if he'd won me back, but he hadn't. This only pushed me farther from him!

I told him at the end of the day what I had done with the heart, and he frowned...slumped his shoulders...and stopped walking as I went ahead of him. Another guy came up to me, he usually pokes me ya' know, I told him not to. He asked me if I had a bad day and I said yes, then I told him about it. He told me to tell him O.O Anyways...he tried to cheer me up by poking me anyways, it worked. When I got home, I called Dom's house to talk to him about it...his bro. answered and when I asked to talk to Dom. he said "You're not going to be mean are you?" I asked why he'd said that but got no answer. I asked Dom. why he'd said that, again no answer. Anyways...he was talking in his depressed voice...so I tried to find out what was wrong. No answer.

I asked him "Are you okay?" he just said mmmhmmm...so then I said "You're upset..." he said mmm-mmm...then I said "That's your depressed voice." he said "No." . . .the rest of the conversation he just said mmmhmm and mmm-mmm...it made me feel really bad.

I'm so sick of him pulling these guilt trips on me and treating me like I HAVE to be with him or he'll die. He has NO idea how much that makes me upset...how much that affects me as a person. I don't think he pays any attention to my feelings...the lusty b*****d! He's only a freshman at high school, he knows NOTHING of love.