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why? why does it have to be me?..i know life goes on..but you know u cant really move on...it happends and it stays with you forever..after that you dont really want anyone close to you for fear that they regect you...and if it's not them regecting you it's your ownself that screws the good thing that you had into nothing at all..only a memorey...i miss you....i know i was wrong and i'd die if u wanted me to..because i know that what i did was wrong...it wasn't till that was done to me that i relized it...and i'm sorry...i've had this on my mind for what was it..5 years now...i know your probally long gone but i was hopeing to tell you how sorry i am but i guess i must now say goodbye.. it's 2:35am a joint in my mouth..and hopeing to forget the past so i can look to the future..to all of you who might read this...i stoped careing a long time ago....huh..it looks like another year without a valentine.. i'm sorry to thouse of you reading this forgive the rantings of a 19-20year old..who..cant do anything right..."sometimes you tell the day by the bottle that you drink, sometimes when you'r alone all you do is think" -Bon Jovi,Dead or Alive..... i just wish you know..that..i dont know..maybe just..can i return to the beauty and joy called death from wince was born into but i died in that world to only to wake up here...i wonder if when i die here if i'll go back or contuine on with this hell..so hurry and kill me now so i may find out and if neither of them work? well then at least i.........just let me sit here and smoke this....huh?..ya ya it's already taken care of track 1 and 2 are ready for mixing.I wanna die..i wanna end it all sometimes.. but no..i can't..always for one reason or another..because of the promise's that you've made? or could it be another?alwaysthey are therewaiting to die just untill they too have slit there wrists and watch there blood drip down there fingers and to the floor... i am me noone else...so is that why i'm alone?like i said this a book of stuff some cool, some random and some bone chilling...later -Zero

Posted by: Zero Ember Sun Feb 03, 2008 @ 09:14am

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"I’m not afraid of death, I'm not afraid of dying. I’m not afraid of heartbreak and I’m not afraid of crying. The only thing I fear of ever really coming true, is living this fearless life without you."- Content Zowbie.
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Commented on: Sun Feb 03, 2008 @ 06:54pm


	i learned a long time ago that dwelling in the past kills me slowly. i had 2 stop, or i wouldnt b alive 2day. thats mainly y i forget everything, i dont need to remember. th best thing that i have r with me wen i wake up.

Commented on: Mon Feb 04, 2008 @ 12:36am


	... very shocking indeed...at some times, probably even right now i would want to die,..so your not the only one. Damnit stop feeling like as if your the only one feeling this way zero! there are more than millions of people out there that are taking it harder than you!, not that im saying 'forget about you, there are more important people out there' cus im not. live your life to the fullest, live, smile, breathe, for those who care about you! whatever in the past is done you cant change it....let it go.....i know its hard...

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Commented on: Mon Feb 04, 2008 @ 01:27am


	"thats just the thing i have let go of it but still it haunts me like a neverending hell...i know i'm not the only one but i wish it didn't feel like it some times...to be honost i love life..but i would never miss a chance to die either...." -Zero

Commented on: Fri Feb 08, 2008 @ 03:56am


	I stoped readin after the second sentence....not to be mean.I just hate readin. 3nodding

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