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I see everyone. I know what they show and what they say. But does it matter to me? I don't see what the big deal is about. They talk down to me. Most of my life I've been talked down to. I even talk down to myself.

I sit alone and I talk to no one. It's pathetic. I don't like the feelings I feel. Jealusy, fear, and anger all of these are emotions of the weak. But I like these emotions more than false happyness and joy. Those emotions cloud your mind and erase your true thoughts. People can easily manipulate you if you let those emotions control.

So I have a hard time making friends. Who cares? I joined new clubs and sports this year and I am even worse off than when I started.

But I will find a way to control my thoughts and emotions. I will fight and win even if I am scared. I am no quitter. Years of anger and devasting remarks as given me something no one else has. A burning desire to prove myself. A monster inside that doesn't care who it steps on to get what it wants.

My Inner Fire...