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I woke with a jolt, fully awake as I scared around the room. It was dark, but my eyes quickly focused, allowing me to see. There were footsteps now, quickly pattering across the wooden floors in the hall. great I growled. That must be Amaya, coming to check on me...How many nights in a row now? Five? No...Maybe six..Crying out in my sleep like a baby. It wouldn't be long till she was in my room now.

I'd memorized how long it took Amaya to wake to my wail from my dream, reassure Ukitake she'd be alright, and make it down around the corner to my sleeping quarters. Not long. Tonight, she was right on the dot as I turned, watching the door slide open, and she stood. Light from the hall lights making her nothing but a black silhouette.

"I'm sorry, Amaya. I didn't mean to disturb your sleep." I apologized quickly. She shook her head kindly like she always did. "Another bad dream?" She asked, keeping her voice down so not to wake anyone from the court still sleeping. I nodded, though she didn't need to know it was the same darn dream, the same as the past few nights, Always making me cry out like a weak baby.

Amaya never asked to many questions about my dreams anymore. Ever since becoming a mother, she knew more, and it showed. "I didn't wake Chi did I?" I asked. There were a few times I had and it would take Amaya and Ukitake at least an hour to get her back to a nice sleep. I know, I had listened.

Amaya shook her head again. "She's not screaming, so I think she's still asleep." I nodded to that as well. Nodding seemed to be my favorite action anymore. "You can go back to bed, Sorry again.." I said, seeing how tired Amaya looked. She didn't say anything, only pursed her lips. "I'll be fine." I insisted. There was another long pause. "Alright. Sure your alright?" She asked. I nodded, there it was again.

"Call if you need me." Amaya said before leaving, though she knew I probably wouldn't. "Goodnight, Rizado. Don't let those dreams get to you." She said as she took a step deeper into the hall. "Thanks." I nodded as she slid the door closed and I listened to her retreating steps back to her room. Door open, Close. Walk across the room to the bed. It was quite moments later as I lay there looking up at the dark ceiling, looking for patterns and pictures in the bamboo woven ceiling, like I did so many nights.

How long had it been? Nearly two years? No...Who knows.. It had been a while since I started staying here in Seiretai, residing in Captain Ukitake's building with the other team buildings near by. I like dt here, but I still receive unsure looks from some of the insignificant soul reapers running around. All of the Captains and Lt.'s knew of me, how they thought of me it was hard to tell. Can't blame them. An Arrencar living in the Gotei 13? What a death wish..

I'd always thought of it like that, but the past few nights its been worse. I'd waken Amaya every night for almost a week now, most nights Ukitake and many of the other Soul Reapers. I hate the attention. Makes me feel uncomfortable, like I want to shed out of my skin. Maybe I should go stay in squad 11's quarters...I'm sure Elena could get me a room...And they wouldn't think twice about beating me unconscious when I cried out at night.

Its a tough debate, even if you think its stupid. Maybe I should go back to Hueco Mundo. No you moron, not back to Las Noches..I never plan on going back there to Aizen and his Arrencar flunkies. I could go back to Hueco Mundo, wander around the rest of eternity with the stray hollows. That mass of sand and nothing..Nobody around to disturb.

I lay in the bed for a good hour at least before I looked at the small window in the wall. Still dark. I sighed, standing up from my mat on the floor and heading across the bare room to the hall. Light on m feet, I escaped outside. Only ones who saw me were the two guards stationed at the main door for the night, as I gave them a small wave. Heading out across the lawn.

Dew covered the grass, soaking my feet and the bottoms of my pant legs. The small pond in the yard sat motionless, tempting us all with its peaceful sway of water, rippling the reflecting of the large full moon on it. That wasn't where I wanted to be though. There was a place I liked to go and sit. No one knew about it, save Chi. She was the best Hide-and-seeker I knew. Even when we weren't playing hide-and-seek, she found me.

It didn't take more than five minutes at my slow pace to get to where I liked it. It was at the edge of the court yard, almost against the gate of the building and yard. I crawled deep into the tall reeds, finding my nook of boulders and a small lonely tree that sat in the reeds. Back to the tree I sat, picking at the reeds careful not to shred my fingers like I did so many times before on the thin, sharp edges of the reed blades. Out here, I couldn't wake anyone. With that calm thought, I finally nodded off, closing my mind off for the rest of the night, or at least trying to.


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Augh, I know this sucks.
I really ain't cut out for writting...
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Hope this 'From Rizado's point of view' is alright, and not to stupid...
And Olivia, Mitzi, Lindsay, Forgive me if I murder your characters personalities..T___T