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Sitting in the middle of the street feeling the rain
The coldness is so sharp that it cut my vein
Waiting for somebody to come and check on me
I ran away and nobody have noticed me
"Why can't they accept the real me?"
"Why do they enjoy hating me?"
They want me to be something I'm not
then they ask: "Why do you cut?"
I'll bleed and they won't care if I die
maybe its just better to tell them goodbye
"Would they care if I disappear?"
They didn't love me when I was near
my own parents hate me
they keep on rejecting me
"Did I do something bad to get this?"
I am the one they won't miss...
I wear black as the color of my soul
Being loved was my goal
But now after realizing that father doesn't even know me
And after knowing that mother doesn't want me
I think I'm falling in an eternal sleep
Dreams came and flew with me to another world
I was given the book of my life to read
"Maybe life is too good for me"
I tried to escape it but death can't handle me
"I'm always sad...Is it that bad?"
All I wanted is to feel safe and loved
I can't be saved...Its just a little too late
Now after I closed the page on my fate
I don't want to hear them but they speak so loud
Their voices are destroying the thoughts in my mind
I'm unloved, confused and abused
All I wanted is not to be used
Now my tears fell with no reason at all
It felt into a painful hole
Nobody understand me, not even a little bit
But I think I just have to live with it...