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i am one cruel cruel b***h -_-*sigh* im so mean to the ones who "like" me. the one called Brandon who likes me is so...decent and sweet and completely...delicious. hes just so wonderful and i can see how hard he tries to please me. but i just...well im overly honest with him and yet im not. im so curious about him but not in the way one would think...i do not want him like he wants me. i feel it is wrong not to want this beautiful one because hes a male. but then i know he doesn't want the smex cause hes good like that. but still the feelings are different and its unfair to him. because i know...i could be with him and be his companion however once a pretty girl comes along i would leave him to be with her. And maybe the whole chick thing will never happen...but still just knowing that i would leave him if i could makes it seem so wrong. i want him as a toy when it comes right down to it and he wants me in a heterosexual way...i feel shitty -_-