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well i had it all typed.. but some s**t happened and i had to refresh the page which lost it all...>.<talk about wanting to slam ur head against the wall a zillion times!!!!!!!!!!!! scream scream scream scream scream
i'll type it later when i'm not pissed off at my brother's stupid lap top...
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i'm too lazy and i don't feel like typing in detail like i usually do, so i'll just do an outline...
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things are going good with Phillip (him).. he's treating my like i'm accually VISIBLE..

and the new crush's name is Noah... Bronze short shagy hair.. Emerald eyes i beleive.. on a scale of one to ten he would be 9.5 on how perverted he is...
the chorus and band went on a trip to Carowind's Theme park in South/North Carolinia.. a girl on the way there asked if me and Noah went out and i said "no.. why?" she said that Noah talked about me a lot.. and i've always liked him, but my feelings didn't really hit me until i realized that he might like me bak..
a few days after we got bak from the trip one of my friend/peers asked him out for me even though i said not too... stare he said:
"no, because i'm moving a month..."
crying crying crying i was so sad!! and if u get wat he said he said 'no BECAUSE he's moving'!!! that means that it most likely would have been a YES if he wasn't moving!! i'm ganna miss him being annoyed at me for annoying him about giving me huggs! and he was the FIRST boy to who LIKED me!! THAT I DIDN'T MEET ON THE INTERNET!!!! THE FIRST BOY!!!! xp xp xp crying crying
i'm so pissed and sad at the same time... and God, not to mention his SMILE!!!! (or smerk, whatever u want to call it..) it so damn-mmmmm!!!!! God i cant descibe it... it's the most RECKLESS smerk i've ever seen!! and i love it!! the first time i saw it was when his eyes were hidden in shadows, and i think he was smerking AT me!! if u kno the show Paranoia Agent, it's just like Little Sluggers smerk... XD
lol, i'm starting to obsess again.. but i'm ganna try to get Noah to make a gaian account before school ends in SEVEN DAYS!!! i still haven't mentioned gaia to him yet cause i can never get the courage to talk to him...>.<oh well.. i'll mention it to him eventually...