Those are the exact words I said to her. I remember. Then...I had another conversation with my mom on Thursday. Wait...I think it was the same conversation. That conversation.....It.....I didn't want to show my anger to my mom about that conversation. What....? Doesn't she trust me anymore...?
She....She should trust me....that what I'm saying is the truth....
I know my friends wouldn't tell the school counsler. Because if they did...then I would be able to find out easily. They wouldn't want me to get ticked off at them. They all know that it is a pain in the butt when I get really really ticked off. But even when I was at that place...the longer I'm away from home with people that I sure as hell do not even know...the more ticked off I get. But I couldn't show that I was ticked off. I couldn't even be myself when I was there. No one to talk to about the stuff I really like. No one to talk to about anime, about Twilight, and about Marked. No one to talk to about Vampires......
They know nothing about me...especially one of the girls there. She was my roommate. Her name is Kourtney. She was really pushing her luck. I hate having to hurt those who are younger then me. But...I was ready to kill her....tear her apart...rip her arms and legs apart from her body...dislocate her head from her neck...blood splashing everywhere....oh man...
To kill someone you really really want to kill....it must....feel so good....
People don't know how many times I thought of killing them when they get me ticked off....
I'm trying to control my emotions. Especially my anger emotion. I kinda have control over it. Keyword: KINDA. I would just walk away, go some place where people would ignore me, sit down somewhere, put my head in my hands or bury them in between my knees and day-dream about me killing them. I would ignore all those around me. I think I understand Jacob. That he gets really angry and would want to tear Edward apart and all but Jasper is there to keep everyone calm. I would get even more ticked off if I was really really ticked but Jasper is there to keep my calm. Wanting to be mad but can't thanks to a certain emotion manipulater. You know what I would do? Knock em out. Sadly...Jasper is a vampire. A human like me is no match for an undead creature.
You know what ticks me off the most? Not knowing how I feel. My true feelings. Well...I of course know when I'm feeling ticked off. I don't know when I'm feeling normal. Ya know...neutral. Because at the same time...I would have this odd feeling...the feeling that I'm having right now...But you know the most definate feeling that I really really want to know what it is like thanks to my damn curiosity? One word.
Love.
I don't care who it is. I just want someone to describe it to me...of how it is like when they fall in love with someone. Do you feel butterflys flutter around in your stomach? Tch Yeah right. I just want someone to describe it to me.
Time to post pics
Mikoto Sukimachi(Official pic for Mikoto. I hope you likey!)
Tears of Eyes
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Shina Hosokoawa
Destrution of Humanity
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Nagisa Honoka
Blade of Fate
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Heigher Satso
Flame of Hell
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Masha Suzumiya
Confusion of Reality
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Ryu Hayabusa
Assassin of Shadows
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Aerean Hikari
Sinner of Destiney
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Arisa Hikari
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Saya Noriko
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Inochi Hikari
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Tekashi Hikari
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Sanosuke Hikari
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Kana Sakagami
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Kaiser Momochi
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Ren Hisagi
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Koji Hisagi
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Kaito Haruka
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This is what I really look like in real live! Except my eyes are really dark brown. And the can in the mouth...pretend it's a Pepsi
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My big cousin Andy! AznBoi909
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My little cousin, Wendy a.k.a Donnae! Look-its-Wendy
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Here is what Koji looks like when he is in battle mode(Except his weapon is a scythe)
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Here is what his scythe looks like
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