okay., well, i think everybody has gone overboard. know why? everybody's been treating me unusually lately., or is it plain jealousy? *sigh*
well, my life isn't that nice. i have felt this feeling just this monday, they have turned their backs on me. even the person i think who would still be there even all of the other people are gone.
i was wrong.
instead he chose to prioritize someone else, he was suppose to be my brother. well not biologically but one way or the other, he was suppose to be there and comfort me.
but not only him, my bestfriend/sister is also not her usual self lately. i understand that she's all angry with her nonbiological brother but hey! you need not to throw that all away. and yet, she wasn't there. even my other bestfriend, well, im used to her, she's not that very into our group but i know and understand that she needs to prioritize her boyfriend.
it's senseless, even all the persons i've hoped who can help me were never there. i can only rely on myself nowadays.
i guess my mom and dad were right.
well, my life isn't that nice. i have felt this feeling just this monday, they have turned their backs on me. even the person i think who would still be there even all of the other people are gone.
i was wrong.
instead he chose to prioritize someone else, he was suppose to be my brother. well not biologically but one way or the other, he was suppose to be there and comfort me.
but not only him, my bestfriend/sister is also not her usual self lately. i understand that she's all angry with her nonbiological brother but hey! you need not to throw that all away. and yet, she wasn't there. even my other bestfriend, well, im used to her, she's not that very into our group but i know and understand that she needs to prioritize her boyfriend.
it's senseless, even all the persons i've hoped who can help me were never there. i can only rely on myself nowadays.
i guess my mom and dad were right.
Quote:
trust your own self and rely on your self.
i think they've got a point there.
i don't know why but i can't tell some of my feelings to my mom or dad, rather keep them to myself. what did i do to let people hate me anyway?
im not saying im emo or something but i guess, this is just another promblem i gotta solve.
and just recently, i just finished Sun Tzu's The Art Of War, well, it has helped a bit. i learned a lot of things, including knowing your enemies. and well, history of the culture of my ex-boyfriend. he's half chinese. but my dad pushed me to read it anyway.
the quote was:
i don't know why but i can't tell some of my feelings to my mom or dad, rather keep them to myself. what did i do to let people hate me anyway?
im not saying im emo or something but i guess, this is just another promblem i gotta solve.
and just recently, i just finished Sun Tzu's The Art Of War, well, it has helped a bit. i learned a lot of things, including knowing your enemies. and well, history of the culture of my ex-boyfriend. he's half chinese. but my dad pushed me to read it anyway.
the quote was:
Quote:
If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor self, you will succumb in every battle...
isn't it right? well, i hope it is..
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