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Man, I am so tired. There are so many people here. Too many dishes to wash. --__-- I hate peole. I like it better being on my own. The people here have driven me insane. I can't wait to get out of florida. I have 2 places I can go. 1 of them, it is rather easy to get there. the other... is a little harder. I will have to be working for a long time to have enough money saved up to get there.... V.v Oh well. So far this summer has been pretty boring. I was forced to go boating with my family and I got sun burned really really bad, even though I put sunblock on. Damn. more often than not each day there has been 11 people here... >< And I have to wash dishes for every single one of them. GAH! My computer is really slow. I am suprise it hasn't closed out the internet again while writing this. It usually takes a few trys to even get to gaia or my myspace. I intend on graduating early I have the cradits to do it I just need to get my last 3 classes in amd I am good. Unforunetly my last 3 classes seem to be kinda hard. Well really hard. O_o crying Damn it! I am so lazy. I wanna go back to sleep but I got to baby-sit these children while my mom is sleeping. >< LAZY BUM! GASP! I have this big fat yellow cat, his name is Simon. I was sleeping in my room yesterday, and I woke up to him and his 20 lbs body on the bend in my arm. hehe, I couldn't feel my arm. ^^;; I don't like cats, but they seem to really like me. We have 2 big black german shepards. I luffs them they are soooo cute! <3 i love dogs. They arefun to play with. My mom is being a butt. I need to go to tampa to fly to texas and she said that she wont take me unless my dad pays her 100 dollers to pay for her gas. Well, what she doesn't seem to understand is that the childsupport that she is spending to buy sodas with is suppose to go to paying for the gas. Oh well. I don't care either way. As long as I get out of Florida. If I can't go to texas I am going to tennissee. I will kill to get out of Florida. I feel sick to. maybe I am not getting enough sleep.. or bug poisin got on my food...again. >< It sucks. I have accadently consumed bug poisin twice. and I have gotten really sick from it. *yawn* Tired tired tired.Hm, I wonder if I can vist Erica sometime before I leave. That would kick a**. I missses all my friends that I can't see anymore. )=> I misses all of them. Everylast one that I have known forever. *yawn* gawd! hehe, I am so tired...I didn't go to ed until 3:30 ish. Kinda my falut but not at the same time. Jarred, someone I hate more than life itwself, was sitting next to me and everytime my sister or friend would say something he would click on them and read it. He took the mouse from me to do this. eventually I Threw the mouse on the floor. I feel worn out. Sometime I feel like something is missing. I know what it is too. But to say it would mean I am finally accepting it... and I don't want to. Not yet. I feel as if I do accept it now.... I will lose it forever. But I think I already lost it and I am holding onto nothing. Oh well. I need to move on. it isn't healthy clinging to the past to the point of where it holds me back from moving forward. When I get back this summer I am going to jump at the first job opening I can get. I don't really care at akl where I work as long as I get work and money to move by at the lest Febuary. I think I can do it. BUt no one seems to believe in me. I might actually be gone long before that. I might finish my schooling over the internet. not as good as finishing it in school, but I really don't care. I might be leaving right after I turn 18. My friend is coming down from Tennessiee and MIGHT take me back with her if I am willing to go with her or finish my schooling. I might just go with her and do that GPA test on the internet for 300 or so dollers. I would be graduating that way. My mom and Dad would be really mad at me. But I don't care. The sooner out of here the better. I wanted to just leave njow but that would be kidnapping and if my mom wanted me back i would have to go. >< But once I am 18 i can leave, I have no obilgation left here. What was keeping me here... well, let just say... I don't know what to say about it.... aside from... nothing... I don't know what to say about it at all. so there! Buwahaha! I have lost my mind! Weeeee! Coo coo! Coo coo! Coo coo! Sigh well, damn I have run out of things to blabber about. x3 not like there is going to be anyone reading this. I just feel better getting it out of my system! YEAH! >D
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