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It is 4 am. This is night one of being alone, and I must say, I'm tired as hell, but refuse to go to sleep until I start hallucinating... I think I'm in some sort of denial, or depression, or something... But whatever it is, it has instilled in me a drive that I am really not liking right now. Not to mention the only friend I have on right now is going about her rp. Acceptable as that may be, I unfortunately, right now, am incapable of making friends here on Gaia... Besides, there are so many people on here who have been on here for like, ever... Who would want to strike up convo with a lowly like me... But then again, I have managed to make a few, which is something to be proud of. I'm quite sure I'll make more... She called me back, around 1 am, to let me know she got into Texas safe and sound. I must say, I was so happy to hear her voice. I keep a picture of her in my wallet and by my computer; the two things I'm around the most, lol. Not to mention I have a picture of her on my phone, and several on my computer xd . This Journal thing is starting to become a regular habit for me, lol. Ahh, the beauty of writing, and being a writer in turn, even if it is with poetry. I guess it doesn't help that I've done a few years in the Yahoo! Rp circuit. Added to me experience is what it did. And tomorrow, or later today, rather, I begin my search for jobs in Omaha... Fun fun... I could ask if Petsmart will take me back... But I need to make a bit more than that. Need to support car insurance, rent, cell phone, gym membership, and health food... Yep, 10/hr. at least, lol... Could go for a beer right now, but there are only 2 in the fridge... What's the point of drinking just 2? I guess I'm just afraid of going to sleep... Not because I'm afraid of the dark or anything, but that I don't have her laying next to me... Even when we went to bed mad, she would still cuddle up next to me eventually during the night... Those were good times... Happy times... But no more, not for a while... I sleep on my own!! I'm a big boy, I can do it!! xd Now that I think about it, I see so many subtle little things around here that remind me of her, life's gonna be a bit tough, lol. But then again, isn't that how it always is?

The Mighty Chimera-san (a.k.a. Jeff-kun)