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...since I don't want to explain multiple times. sweatdrop

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Okay. Some time ago I went to the doctor. The reason was I had missed too many periods. It had been several months. But I couldn't be pregnant, save immaculate conception. rolleyes

The reason it turned out was connected to my thyroid. I would need to be medicated if that was the case. To tell the truth, I was a bit relieved. I've been having problems with my weight for a while, so I figured the medicine would raise my metabolism so I could loose weight.

No such luck. sweatdrop It turns out I have hyperthyroidism. Sadly, this has the opposite effect on my body, giving me a higher metabolism than most. But I have to take the medication, because a high metabolism causes the deterioration of the bones, which is why my joints pop constantly. sweatdrop

So, I'm a fatty. Not somebody that can't control their weight because they have a low metabolism.... I'm actually... just... a fatty. xd

But I've really come to terms with that in the last several weeks, after a short bout of depression.

Other than that, my body feels a lot better, at least as far as aching goes. I feel a lot stronger, without even exercising a lot. It must be my bones getting stronger. And I've had a period, and it was surprisingly not any worse than my normal ones. 3nodding Really glad about that. sweatdrop I mean, periods suck, but not having one can be kinda... unnerving.

And I'm going to go to a dietitian today, to see what I need to do to change things.

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Other than that, my step-grandmother hadn't been doing well. She had lung cancer and it was only a matter of time.

I'm really glad it's over now, and I know she's glad too. She's in a much better place now. Probably telling stories and jokes with the Lord.

She was an amazing woman, always optimistic, always having fun, even as she was getting old. Even after her first round of chemo, she was doing pretty well. (Especially thanks to the "Look good, Fell better" group.

If any of you do anything in memory of Granmel, you should do two things. (1) Don't smoke. (2) Live every day of your life, not like it's your last day, but like it's your first.

Shortly after hearing about Granmel's passing, I came back to Gaia for a short time, only to find out another wonderful woman had died of cancer. Her username is Gallade, and you may have seen the unicorns in sigs and the messages to her.

I didn't know her very well, or rather she didn't really know me. sweatdrop She was one of the ones I admired without really ever having a chance to befriend. I have no idea where she is now, but I pray she's up there with Granmel, sharing her love of Unicorns.

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Finally, I've been busy trying to get a job, so I don't know how much time I'll have with Gaia in the future, but I'm still going to try and make it a priority in my life. Sure real life is more important, and all... but Gaia is my home, and I can't leave it without being miserable for a while. sweatdrop

Thanks everyone who thought about me at all while I was gone. heart