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I really and truely think that God doesn't like me very much
God I know it may not be true, but that's what it feels like
maybe you could give me a sign or something just to know that you like me again
I'm not losing faith in you or anything, but it's just a feeling that you aren't really there for me
it seems everything in these last few weeks of summer for me, haven't been going the way that I had hoped
I know you can't always say, "Okay, I'm gonna do this, this and this today, and then I'll have time for that, that and that tomorrow." no that's not how life works
life is an on going thing, and maybe not everything you hoped for is going to turn out that way, but I mean maybe every once an a while things can go the way that I thought they were going to go
hopefully you read this, since you are everywhere, and you are the ruler of everything
I know I'm probably going to hell for posting this, but if that's what God wants for me, then I think that's the way that he wants me to go...he's the one who knows what's right for someone, and what's wrong for someone...yeah I think I may be going to hell, but I really want to go to heaven where all.. most... some of my friends are going, and where my family is, because I want to be with them when I'm gone and when they're gone