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Ohio Gozaimasu.

Konichiwa.

Kon ban wa.

Let me now allow you to enter the dark and depressing state of my mind as it is at the moment.

So...my mom's gone off to Iraq for six months just now. She gave me a biiiiig hug {as did I} and a few kisses...but that's not enough for me. Knowing that my mom's going to Iraq for six months and she may not be coming back...well...now I know why some of those children act up. I mean...I know what some of you are thinking "Cheh! My mom/dad's been in Iraq for a year now! You have no reason to worry!!!" and I do realise this...I realise that I'm being selfish for worrying about my mom...but...I just can't shake the feeling that she'll never come back from Iraq. She's going to be leading people from Com. to Com...or something of that sort. Either way, she's leading people from base to base...and as we should all well know, all of the remaining terrorists as well as the NEW group of terrorists are after the people going from base to base. What if my mom gets kidnapped...what if they torture her? What if she witnesses something so terrible that she'll never be herself again? What if she dies...what if something happens and she never comes home?

I've had a terrible feeling in my gut about her going for quite sometime now...and...I didn't realise just how much I was going to miss her until she just left. Six months of worrying about my mom...six months of not hearing her voice too often or being able to hug her...six whole months of thinking that she might die any second...it's too depressing to think about. I can't shake that feeling though...the feeling that something in the universe decided that she was going to have to leave this earth while she was away from her family...it's as if something in the world is letting me know ahead of time so I won't be as upset...but that would only make the impact so much worse on me, wouldn't you think? I don't really know...all that I do know is that I really need a good friend right now to help me through this set of problems that I'm facing...and I need a hug from my mom.

If you've read this, thank you for worrying about me or even just chuckling at the thought of somebody so "pathetic" as some would put it.

Domo Origato...

And good day.